Lately I’ve been feeling the worst kind of pain,nothing. I feel so numb and lost. I’m not sure why but I keep getting people close to me so angry with me and when its happening I don’t give a fuck but then afterwards I always do. I hate myself. I can’t stand myself sober anymore and when I’m not sober is when I loose people. I want to go away for a long time. I can’t stand myself anymore. I’m never happy,never. I try my hardest but it just doesn’t seem to happen for me.